The Time Is Now

Time. What an elusive concept. This one word encompasses so much, and yet, there is never enough of it. The clock ticks down and we run out of time, but...there's always tomorrow.

Try as I might, I'm never able to get ahead of myself. I thought I'd finish my work earlier this week, so I would have time to hang out with friends, to do things, to practice. And yet, here I sit, whiling away the minutes.

There are times when time seems to stop, to stand still, and drag on for an eternity. Sometimes, it's good, when we can savor the moment, drinking in every detail, every sound, every aroma. Other times, it's awkward, and nobody seems to know what to do, or what to say. And other times, it's bad. Seconds feel like an eternity, while you stand there, wishing for nothing more than to have the ground open up and swallow you whole.

I hung out with my friends last night. I hadn't seem them in months. These are some of my best friends since elementary school. In the past, regardless of how much time has passed, we pick up as if it were yesterday; nothing changes. Last night, though, I realized just how much we changed this time. Silences dragged on, when I would look around the group, and nobody wanted to talk. I filled the silences, even though I have the least going on.

It's sad, but I think I'm ready this time. In the past, I wasn't ready to let go. I held on, for old times' sake. But I think a time of restructuring is not uncalled for. I've reached a point in my life where I need to take a good look around me and decide what, and whom, I will be identified with.

Will I regret this decision as much as I did back in 2006? Probably. Am I still moving forward with this decision? Definitely.