Um...Hm?

umm....Not really sure what happened this past week.

It all started with free tickets and an invite to a Black Eyed Peas concert in Central Park:

Hey May,
I got some free tix to BEP concert at central park this Fri! I am also asking other ppl at church, lemme know if ur interested!
Eddie

After a bit of "thanks for organizing this" and "we're meeting at Columbus Circle at 5:30" (to which Queens/Brooklyn traffic made me 30 minutes late), the 6 of us had a good night of mediocre music, interesting/inappropriate dancers around us, rain, and yummy Flushing food. I sent everyone home (which added an hour to my hour-long drive), and it was fun. He, and others, texted me, making sure I got home okay:

hey, have you got home yet?
 Not yet. In about 10 minutes.
texting while driving?! haha. get home safe. it was great fun tonight! thanks for coming out, good night!

That was Friday night.

Today at church, we did our customary "Hi how are you?" in the hallway during lunch, and that was about it. I was hanging out at church, waiting to teach a lesson, and he came over to the group I was with and was like, "May, I just wanted to let you know that I'm going back to China for a few months...Because I haven't seen my dad in a while. But I'll be back." So I was just standing there stupidly, not knowing what to do, so I gave him a light hug goodbye. So awkward, I know, but I was already hugging other people goodbye, and I wouldn't be seeing him for a few months. Then he asks for my email address.

An hour later, after my lesson, I get a text from him:

hey, May. are you free on Thursday night. I just realized I have two tickets to Carnegie Hall that night. It will be Mariinsky orchestra playing Tchaikovskys symphony 1, 6. it starts at 8, it would be great if you can come! yes, i do have a lot of tix, lol.

So, of course, I'm a little wary, wondering if maybe I'm reading into things a little too much. During dessert/coffee, I ask my brother and our church friends if I was, and they all agreed that it sounds like a date. Well, if I reschedule lessons on Thursday, I'd be able to make it, but I need to reschedule next Thursday's lesson for a city shopping trip, and I can't change two weeks in a row; that'd be too unprofessional. So I text him back telling him I can't, sorry.

A few hours later, I get this massive text from him saying:

it feels i will be missing a lot. every person from church has been so warmth and touching, live the true meaning of love. i will be missing every single person there. it's been a life changing six months for me, coming to church and the church resides in me. I just wished time can pause, I had more time, or taken up more chances to know more about everyone, in the end it's the people that matters the most. I preciously value every moment of church for the past few weeks as i finally opened my heart, a bit late, hehe, but i have been really happy :) im actually going away for work there, not that im never coming back, but not that frequently :) mom and sister are here, home is always here, it might be destiny i have to go abroad. sorry, scaring you off with the massive message, haha i just feel like you are someone i can pour my words out. look forward the next time we meet!!

...so of course, now I feel bad rejecting his invitation to a free concert, and stuff. Maybe I was a bit hasty in my decision, but I can't take it back. I also don't really know what just happened. I know what the texts said, but I don't know what they really said.

Not that it matters. He's going to China next Tuesday. And I don't think I'm even interested. Though I could be.